The Valley of Vision

A Puritan prayer from The Valley of Vision

Lord, high and holy, meek and lowly,
Thou has brought me to the valley of vision,
where I live in the depths but see thee in the heights;
hemmed in by mountains of sin I behold thy glory.

Let me learn by paradox
that the way down is the way up,
that to be low is to be high,
that the broken heart is the healed heart,
that the contrite spirit is the rejoicing spirit,
that the repenting soul is the victorious soul,
that to have nothing is to possess all,
that to bear the cross is to wear the crown,
that to give is to receive,
that the valley is the place of vision.

Lord, in the daytime stars can be seen from deepest wells,
and the deeper the wells the brighter thy stars shine;
Let me find thy light in my darkness,
thy life in my death,
thy joy in my sorrow,
thy grace in my sin,
thy riches in my poverty
thy glory in my valley.

Faith like Hannah

Today we started a sermon series on 1 Samuel. Here are my reflects on Hannah from 1 Samuel 1.

If I’m honest, I have mixed feelings about Hannah. On one level we share a deep sadness. We’re both childless women who desperately want that to change. But that’s where the similarity stops. Because Hannah got what she wanted. And so I wonder what can I learn from Hannah, when there’s no guarantee my story will end happily ever after.

For me there’s 2 things that really stand out about Hannah. Her mistake and then what she does right.

In the first 17 verses Hannah is miserable. Verses 7 and 8 tell us she wept. And her husband describes her as being downhearted. Verse 10 says in her deep anguish she wept bitterly. In verse 15 she tells Eli she is deeply troubled, then in verse 16 she talks about her great anguish and grief. She is utterly miserable.

She’s miserable because she’s made a mistake that many of us do. She has defined herself and her life and her happiness by what she doesn’t have. That’s the reason Peninnah is able to provoked her to tears. Both Hannah and Peninnah really only care about what Hannah’s life is missing. Not what she has already. Her Husband Elkanah notices this too. He asks her why are you downhearted? Aren’t I worth more to you than ten sons? Elkananh loves her and makes sure she is taken care of. So it’s no wonder he is surprised that she is so utterly miserable.

Hannah is so focused on what’s missing, that she can’t see the good things that are right in front of her.

Don’t we do the same thing? I know I do. It’s easy to daydream about a husband and kids, and forget that I get to sleep in at least once a week. I don’t have to check with anyone before I make plans. My time, my money, my energy, my holidays are all my own.

What do you daydream about? And what good things are you missing while you daydream?

It’s not that wanting things is bad. Many of the things we really long for are good gifts from God. But focusing so much on the things we don’t have that we forget to be thankful for the good things we do have will only leave us weeping bitterly. Just like Hannah. That’s her mistake.

But then she does something right. It’s something that’s very ordinary. She prays.

Despite her sadness, she responds in faith. She acknowledges God’s sovereignty. She’s not bitter towards God, she’s not angry with him. She knows he is the Lord Almighty and she turns to him with the very deepest desires of her heart.

Verse 11 says

And she made a vow, saying, “Lord Almighty, if you will only look on your servant’s misery and remember me, and not forget your servant but give her a son, then I will give him to the Lord for all the days of his life, and no razor will ever be used on his head.”

As she’s praying Eli the priest, thought she was drunk. She quickly corrects him – ‘I’m not drunk. I was pouring out my soul to the Lord.’

Hannah’s response here challenges me in my own sadness and desires because I have to ask, is that how I respond? So often I’m very quick to pour out my soul to family and friends, or pretty much anyone else who’ll listen and be sympathetic.

But Hannah says “I was pouring out my soul out to the Lord.

It’s easy to be caught up with sharing your problems with everyone else and forget to share them with the one who can actually deal with them. If you are convinced that God is completely in control of all things, and if you are convinced that he is good and loving all the time, why wouldn’t you pour out your soul to the Lord? Hannah’s prayer is ordinary, but it’s the response that makes the most sense.

Hannah’s prayer was turning point for her. In verse 18 we read that as she got up and left the temple ‘Hannah’s face was no longer downcast.’

We could easily assume that Hannah’s attitude changed when she a baby – when she gets the thing she wants. But the changed happened before that. Her prayer changed her attitude, her disposition, her ability to cope with he sadness. That change happened well before God in his grace gave Hannah and Elkanah the child they longed for.

I have a mug at home that someone gave me years ago and it say ‘prayer changes things’. To be honest I’ve always found it a little cheesy and I never use it. But as I read Hannah’s story those 3 words keep popping into my mind. It’s true that prayer changes things. It changes us. When we pray we remember that our God, our Father in heaven knows us and loves us. Hannah prayed that he would not forget her. And he didn’t.

He hasn’t forgotten us either. To be sure of that we don’t need to look any further than Jesus. Hannah’s love for God lead her to keep her vow and give her son to live in service to God. God’s love for us lead him to send his son die in place of us. We have even greater reason to respond in faith than Hannah did. We know that in Jesus we have forgiveness, and the hope of eternal life. Our biggest need is already dealt with.

For all the other things we want, the deep desires of our hearts, we can pour out our soul to the Lord in confidence, knowing that he has not forgotten us.

Hannah prays again in chapter 2. She starts her prayer by saying ‘My heart rejoices in the Lord’.

You may never get the things you want. I may never get the things I want. Hannah teaches me to express my faith by praying. She teaches me the right response in sadness – to pour out my soul to the Lord. And she reminds me that I have many reasons for my heart to rejoice in him.

This fb free day…

… has not been entirely fb free, I’ll admit it. But I only used it to organise a real, face-to-face conversation with someone, and to wish my cousin HB so I’m calling it a win ;-)

Today I’ve used most of my day studying, but the afternoon I’m still dedicating to prayer and friends. My prayer points have been updated, I’ve spent some time praying for others, and right now I’m about to have coffee with the most lovely, and much missed, Belinda. Fb free life is good!

Facebook Free Fridays

Last night I decided that from now on my Fridays will be Facebook free. There’s a few reasons I’m doing this but ultimately I recognise that Friday afternoons are a time I easily get distracted and waste, so I’m trying to be intentional about using this time well.

My first time commitment is to prayer in two ways. First is updating people about how they can support me – particularly in prayer. So I have created a Prayer & Support page that I will try to update each week. I’d love for you to be praying for me (I definitely need it!) but, secondly, I would also love to be praying for you. If there is something I can be praying for I’d love for you to contact me and let me know. I’m going to set aside some time on my Facebook free friday to pray and would love to included you in my prayers.

I’ve got quite a few things on my list for Fridays (at this rate I’ll be needing 2 Facebook free days). At the moment my top 3 things are prayer, non-college reading and real contact with people (ie phone calls) I haven’t spoken to for a while. Anything else I should add??

Lead us not into temptation…

‘but deliver us from evil…’

How much are you willing to give up in order to remove temptation from your life?

I don’t think we take this seriously enough. Too often I see young men and women who, for the sake of money, time and/or convenience continue to put themselves in the path of massive temptations, and try to resist it rather than remove it. Sometimes that will work but more often than not it won’t.

I guess the question is, how much is ‘being delivered from evil’ worth to you? How much is Jesus worth to you? Is he worth more than the amount of money or time that you would have to give up to remove temptation from your life?



Great sermon this morning from David Hohne on prayer.

God ALWAYS answers our prayers. Sometimes he answer with a no. So how do we know we can still trust him?

Arguably the biggest No he gave was to his son. Jesus prayed in the Garden of Gethsemane –

My Father, if it is possible, may this cup be taken from me

Whatever our ‘cup’ is, if the answer is no, are we able and willing to finish our prayer as Jesus did – yet not as I will, but as you will?

Please pray for these…

My Grandmother and Aunty recently found out they have breast cancer.

My Aunty is having a mastectomy on the 6th January. My Grandmother initially decided not to have treatment but since then she has seen a surgeon who strongly recommended surgery and so she will have her operation on 7th January. 

Please pray for –
– successful operations, quick recovery and good news from nymph node tests for them both
– wisdom and guidance for all their doctors
– for my family (especially my Dad), that we would love and support them the best we can 
– that my Grandmother will hold firm to Jesus and the hope she has in him
– that my Aunty will turn to Jesus and see the great gift her offers her